15/9/17
My name is Sydney O.
This is my first post.
I am so excited to be doing this because I have wanted to do this for about a month now, and I am at a point in my life where so much is happening so fast. Years from now, I want to remember the way i feel right now; the rush of emotions, the fears, anxiety, confusion... everything, so i can truly appreciate how far I have come.
My life is not perfect or even anywhere near perfect. Exactly one week ago from today I made a life-changing decision despite the fear and uncertainties, somehow i knew it was the right thing to do. A lot will happen as the days go by (be rest assured that i will post every bit of it), and i am preparing myself for it. This is a summary of where I am currently.
This is my story.
I was customarily married about 5 months ago to a certain man. I have always known that something was not right about this relationship which I had been in for about 2 years, with lots of break-ups and make-ups in between. I am not entirely sure why I agreed to go ahead with the marriage, but it happened. within one month of being married, i started having those same feelings i used to have in the past that made me not want to go ahead with the marriage anymore but i tried to suppress the feeling and forge ahead to ensure that the marriage works. But after a month or two, I could not take it anymore. I sought for counsel. I told my family my intention of quitting, but they encouraged me to work hard at the marriage. I tied again for about a month and i knew that i could not continue in the marriage. And on a Saturday when my husband had gone to his place of business, I packed my things and went back to my family house.
Some of my family members asked me to go back because i was already married. I was under so much pressure of what to do, where to go to if i left the house because i knew i would not go back to the house i had just left. I was also having a hard time at work. But just before the end of the week, my oldest brother who had not been around returned, and he told me i did not have to go back if i did not want to, because he would not sit and watch me ruin my life while i still had the opportunity to make amends.
I am from a catholic home. And the catholic church teaches that even if a couple has been married customarily, the marriage is not complete until the couple goes to the church for the wedding. During this whole period, I made a lot of enquiries and I realised that many non-catholics did not share this belief. Infact, they believe that the customary marriage is enough, after which the couple can go to their pastor for blessing of the marriage.
To be continued.
My name is Sydney O.
This is my first post.
I am so excited to be doing this because I have wanted to do this for about a month now, and I am at a point in my life where so much is happening so fast. Years from now, I want to remember the way i feel right now; the rush of emotions, the fears, anxiety, confusion... everything, so i can truly appreciate how far I have come.
My life is not perfect or even anywhere near perfect. Exactly one week ago from today I made a life-changing decision despite the fear and uncertainties, somehow i knew it was the right thing to do. A lot will happen as the days go by (be rest assured that i will post every bit of it), and i am preparing myself for it. This is a summary of where I am currently.
This is my story.
I was customarily married about 5 months ago to a certain man. I have always known that something was not right about this relationship which I had been in for about 2 years, with lots of break-ups and make-ups in between. I am not entirely sure why I agreed to go ahead with the marriage, but it happened. within one month of being married, i started having those same feelings i used to have in the past that made me not want to go ahead with the marriage anymore but i tried to suppress the feeling and forge ahead to ensure that the marriage works. But after a month or two, I could not take it anymore. I sought for counsel. I told my family my intention of quitting, but they encouraged me to work hard at the marriage. I tied again for about a month and i knew that i could not continue in the marriage. And on a Saturday when my husband had gone to his place of business, I packed my things and went back to my family house.
Some of my family members asked me to go back because i was already married. I was under so much pressure of what to do, where to go to if i left the house because i knew i would not go back to the house i had just left. I was also having a hard time at work. But just before the end of the week, my oldest brother who had not been around returned, and he told me i did not have to go back if i did not want to, because he would not sit and watch me ruin my life while i still had the opportunity to make amends.
I am from a catholic home. And the catholic church teaches that even if a couple has been married customarily, the marriage is not complete until the couple goes to the church for the wedding. During this whole period, I made a lot of enquiries and I realised that many non-catholics did not share this belief. Infact, they believe that the customary marriage is enough, after which the couple can go to their pastor for blessing of the marriage.
To be continued.
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